2018: Lessons on Surrendering and Letting Go
So much has happened this year, too many things to account for. 2018 was a year of life-changing experiences: the awakening of my inner vision, the death of my ego and the discovery of my true self and purpose.
My greatest challenge was to surrender and let go. To surrender to what I cannot control, facing my deepest fears and letting go of what no longer serves me. I accepted life as it is with all the joys and uncertainties of living in the present moment.
The lessons are so deep and full of insights.
- I got everything I need within me. I no longer seek for anything outside of myself to make me feel whole again for everything I need to succeed and be happy lives inside me. For a long time, I was numbing my pain and suffering reaching out for external distractions, controlled by my ego, instead of dealing with the root of my problems. I am grateful to have woken up to call out my own bullshit. I know that I was the problem but I am also the solution.
- Doors will open, but I must walk through it. No one was going to do the work for me. I came across people who opened the doors for me to see the opportunities and challenges, but I had to cross the threshold by myself, overcoming my struggles, acknowledging my limitations, understanding my purpose, accepting what it is, what is not and adapting to the changes.
- What I didn't want to do, was exactly what I needed to do. It was in the process of overcoming my struggles that I found the inner strength to conquer my fears. There was no other way to do it but to face my fears head-on, go to that dark place, facing the ugly side of me, to the root of my pain and sorrow and uproot the deep-seated pain, my insecurities, self-judgment, and suffering. It was in this darkness that I found my own light to heal my wounded ego with love, self-love.
- Loving myself was the answer and in loving myself, I was able to love others and be compassionate to them. This is my way of healing. When I selflessly love and help others, I am loving and helping myself in the process.
In 2019 I will continue to walk on the path I have chosen; the path of healing through service. I am blessed to be part of a community where there is love, kindness, and compassion in serving other people. I will make self-care my priority; taking care of my body, my mind and nourish my soul. I will continue to expand my consciousness, sharing love and compassion, building everlasting and stronger relationships with others through service and through the Passionate Warrior movement.
Thank you all for your support and for being part of my life.