Post Ceremony Reflections: Flow, transmuting emotions through music.
Post ceremony reflections: flow
For the past few Sundays, amazing things have happened after I get back home from a weekend of ceremony. I would've opted to checkout for the rest of the night and catch up with the sleep missed during the weekend, but I found myself instead, in front of the piano, or strumming the guitar, letting things to flow through the keys, the strings, feeling the heart to the beat of the djembe, or making the harmonica cry.
I don't question these pulls; I know where they come from. Love pains and grief from recent events, feelings of sadness, and heartbreak. Music became the outlet to transmute these emotions into creation into healing.
This is where these past Sundays have become amazingly transformational. Minutes turn into late hours of the night playing music. My mind disengages and enters into this sacred space where there is no mind. It feels like being taken back into ceremony space.
There is that space of free flow where this energy is moved through the body, through the fingers, through the breath, allowing it to express without judgment. Not caring to fail, not worrying how it sounds or looks, but how it feels, what feels right, and moving through the sad notes into the happy notes. I am allowed to feel the sad feeling but not to keep it. I release it on each chord, transforming it. I forget that I am playing, let alone singing and playing the foot tambourine at the same time. There is something special happening here when I tap into this sacred flow. I feel my heart takes over, and the mind disconnects. A sense of harmony fills the air, even though it may not sound that way.
I am at peace in this space. It is my way of integrating the weekend, my way of moving on at this time, and my way of healing.