Iboga Journey: back to the beginnings
I received the call of Iboga in the summer of 2017. Relationship problems and addiction brought me to the Iboga Wellness Center in Guanacaste, Costa Rica. I wanted to know why I was behaving the way I was and what was at the root of my alcoholism. Alcohol was was the gateway drug that opened the flood gates of my problems, infidelities, etc...
The experience was profound; going back to parts of my childhood and adolescence and identifying the root cause of my addictions and behaviors.
Now that I knew what was going on inside my mind, I sought Ayahuasca to heal the emotional wounds at the root of my addiction and behavior.
These experiences transformed my life, helping break the grip of addiction once and for all and identifying the areas I was struggling in my marriage and my life.
I burned all the bridges of my old lifestyle and invested my time and energy into a life of service at the community where I had my first Ayahuasca ceremony.
Life was going great or so I thought. I had zero cravings for alcohol but my marriage relationship was not where I would wanted it to be. I realized and very quickly that once alcohol was removed, I was no longer able to numb my feelings and emotions I've felt for decades nor push them aside. I now have to face those emotions and feelings raw and sober. I discovered what was lacking from my relationship and that was intimacy and communication. I don't mean intimacy in bed but intimacy in the overall relationship as partners, lovers, confidants...husband and wife.
The infamous year of 2020 brought a massive purge of what could not longer be held back, suppressed or rejected. Pressure was building up in both my marriage and another relationship. An catastrophe of biblical proportions was inevitable. The cat was out of the bad for good. I'll spare you the juicy details for another time, just wanted to give you a baseline to where I was.
I spent time off over the Christmas holidays just to be with myself in solitude. I was feeling burnout, anxious and depress about my life's situation. I needed some guidance, a direction of what to do now, moving forward with separation, finding the best way to help our children to cope with this transition, etc...
The call to return to Costa Rica to sit with Iboga came to the forefront once again. I've been feeling the call for the past 2 years but this time, I answered the call immediately.
So I booked a retreat with Awaken your Soul led by Anthony Esposito and his wife Amber. They used to run the Iboga Wellness center back then.
I have broken down my experience in different episodes so it will be not too long and easier to read.
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Next episode.....THE DETOX