How Am I Getting in My Own Way

How Am I Getting in My Own Way?

This is a question I keep coming back to. I’ve rewritten it over and over through the years. Right now, it lands like this:

In what ways am I scheming against myself, creating what I don’t want while pretending I’m working toward what I do?

When you strip it down, that’s self-sabotage.
The mind spins stories. Replays arguments. Plays out worst-case scenarios. Most of the time, it’s driven by emotion or a trigger I didn’t fully process, and before I know it, I’ve poured energy into something I never wanted in the first place.

The more I obsess, the more it takes shape. Eventually, I find myself standing in a situation that looks exactly like the thing I was trying to avoid.

That’s when I stop and ask:
What am I doing, or not doing, that might be creating this?
What thoughts am I feeding?
What patterns am I repeating?

That question alone helps me step back.
It shifts me out of victim mode and into awareness.
It reminds me to take inventory of what’s happening in my mind, my emotions, and my environment.

And when I catch myself in the middle of it, I pull one of the tools from my back pocket, something I picked up from Joe Dispenza’s work:
Where I place my attention, I place my energy.

That line brings me back into alignment.
Because once I become aware of what I’m focusing on, I can shift it. I can move. I can reroute the spiral and stop the wreck before it crashes into the rest of my life.

Can you relate to that?