5-MeO- DMT : Breakthrough of the Soul
I'm still basking in the glow after my third encounter with the toad today. Words failed me to put this experience into context. So powerful, so profound. After taking the full dose and counting backwards, my body started to dissolve into the void, piercing the fabric of this world into the expansion of my consiousness. As I dive deep, I started to experience the familiar overwhelming feeling where my mind is trying to hang on to reality, giving resistance to surrendering. Learning from past experience, knowing that I am safe and that this is part of the process, I chose to surrender in full faith of the experience. I then crossed the gateway into the other dimension where there is no bottom nor ceiling. I blasted off into hyperspace at a tremendous speed guided by a thought. Then I thought...what is this thought I am thinking? There is no thought was the answer,....where is my body?....there is no body. Who am I ? I am part of this universe and the universe is part of me.
Suddenly, I had a breakthrough. For what I can consciously remember, I was taken back to my childhood and felt something never felt before. I cant remember what it was, there was no specific scene nor moment but I felt it deep in my core, in my heart, something released, let go off me. I was in awe when it happened and how it happened. I was happy, no, scratch that, I was ecstatic, joyful, beyond myself . I remember laughter, a child's laughter, pure and innocent but where is it coming from? Who is laughing? me? I was and it felt like the most sweetest darn thing I've ever felt.
I can't remember much after that but what I was feeling. I wish I could've recorded this experience, to see my reaction but there will be other time for that, no doubt. After doing other plant medicines , experiencing the ordeal that is with Ayahuasca, the intensity of Iboga, the roller coaster of magic mushrooms and DMT, the experience with the toad today was the most rewarding out of the body experience I've ever felt. I could say I wish I could remember, but I realize that I don't need to remember everything after all. My soul knows the kind of healing that happened and that's all I need to know.
I spent the rest of the day in a state of bliss. Life was trying to reel me back into the grind, but I didnt give in. I wasn't trying to remember the experience but relieving the feeling I felt when it happened. Later, I sat down in my parents house recounting my experience and was served a cup of tea. I was blown away in awe at the message on the teabag tag:
"When you become part of the Universe, the Universe become part of You".
Yes Universe, I am listening .... fully in mind and soul.🙏